My, Oh, My.

I keep forgetting to post! I've been so gosh darn busy! well, here is a poem I wrote for English (we had to write about loss) and I thought I'd share it here with you today. (It doesn't have a name yet)
here it is:    

After all the things I told you,

all the things you knew..

I thought I knew you better than that

yet you tried to walk on me like some sort of welcome mat.

I lost so much respect for you that day

my disappointment was as clear as a bad toupee.

I was shocked by what you said

I guess when we met I was just mislead.

I miss the friendship I thought we had

now all I can do is put this down in a writing pad.

There's so many things I wish I could say,

its been several months and I haven't heard from you to this day.

It tore me up inside to say goodbye

it took all of my strength not to cry.

I had to break a promise if I wanted to be with you,

but darling that's something I just couldn't do.

My promise is important, its part of what makes me me.

And anything other than that, is something I can't be.

I miss you, but I'm not sorry, for what I had to say.

The only thing I'm sorry for was falling for you one day.

I thought I was over that puppy love,

but after our conversation, all I heard was a mourning dove.

I really thought we were friends, I really thought you cared,

so when you asked that of me I was unprepared.

I had to say no, its against my beliefs,

its breaking that promise that makes me me.

Its simple to me, its black and white

its something to save for my wedding night.

I'm sorry that I trusted you, I'm sorry I believed.

But now you see, these things we've lost, will never be retrieved.

Had I done what you wanted, had I been naïve,

there would have been more that I could not retrieve.

I'm glad that I stood up for myself, but once in a while I miss you.

I missed all the things we lost, and never got to do.

But then I think and I'm better off, but I wish I had the guts to say,

all the things I wrote here today.

Wow..

Oh my goodness! Its been so long since I've posted... Well, here's my post :) I am finally almost done with my online classes...  :D and I just found this new pic of Chord Overstreet on Facebook the other day. Check it out! Isn't it hot?! Lol. I'm a big fan of him... ;) I'm super disappointed that he's not going to be on Glee this season.... Well, I don't know what else to say, so I'm gonna sign off for now :) Goodbye everyone!

My future.

I've decided to show you all what I wish my future will include.

Cal-State Long Beach. I would like to go to college there. Hopefully for Performing Arts/Theater, Film, or Music.




This is the Tony award. They give it to Broadway performers.

  After I win my Tony Award I'd like to settle peacefully in/around Hollywood, California.

The Grammy. A music award.


 The Oscar/Academy Award. (I read that they're the same thing and can be said interchangeably) They're for Films and Actors/Actresses.


And hopefully marriage and a family, but I don't know when I'll be ready for them so I didn't know where to put them. Its hard to determine when that will happen, seeing as how at this point in life I've never even had a boyfriend or even been kissed.



Well... That is my hopeful potential future. Goodnight everyone! I'll try to be back tomorrow :)